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Shakespeare
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hapter 12You can see how this book has reached a great boundary that was called 1900. Another hundred years
were ground up and churned, and what had happened was all muddied by the way folks wanted it to be
—more rich and meaningful the farther back it was. In the books of some memories it was the best
time that ever sloshed over the world—the old time, the gay time, sweet and simple, as though time
were young and fearless. Old men who didn’t know whether they were going to stagger over the
boundary of the century looked forward to it with distaste. For the world was changing, and sweetness
was gone, and virtue too. Worry had crept on a corroding world, and what was lost—good manners,
ease and beauty? Ladies were not ladies any more, and you couldn’t trust a gentleman’s word.
There was a time when people kept their fly buttons fastened. And man’s freedom was boiling off.
And even childhood was no good any more—not the way it was. No worry then but how to find a good
stone, not round exactly but flattened and water-shaped, to use in a sling pouch cut from a discarded
shoe. Where did all the good stones go, and all simplicity?
A man’s mind vagued up a little, for how can you remember the feel of pleasure or pain or choking
emotion? You can remember only that you had them. An elder man might truly recall through water
the delicate doctor-testing of little girls, but such a man forgets, and wants to, the acid emotion eating
at the spleen so that a boy had to put his face flat down in the young wild oats and drum his fists
against the ground and sob “Christ! Christ!” Such a man might say, and did, “What’s that damned kid
lying out there in the grass for? He’ll catch a cold.”
Oh, strawberries don’t taste as they used to and the thighs of women have lost their clutch!
And some men eased themselves like setting hens into the nest of death.
History was secreted in the glands of a million historians. We must get out of this banged-up
century, some said, out of this cheating, murderous century of riot and secret death, of scrabbling for
public lands and damn well getting them by any means at all.
Think back, recall our little nation fringing the oceans, torn with complexities, too big for its
britches. Just got going when the British took us on again. We beat them, but it didn’t do us much
good. What we had was a burned White House and ten thousand widows on the public pension list.
Then the soldiers went to Mexico and it was a kind of painful picnic. Nobody knows why you go to
a picnic to be uncomfortable when it is so easy and pleasant to eat at home. The Mexican War did two
good things though. We got a lot of western land, damn near doubled our size, and besides that it was
a training ground for generals, so that when the sad self-murder settled on us the leaders knew the
techniques for making it properly horrible.
And then the arguments:
Can you keep a slave?
Well if you bought him in good faith, why not?
Next they’ll be saying a man can’t have a horse. Who is it wants to take my property?
And there we were, like a man scratching at his own face and bleeding into his own beard.
Well, that was over and we got slowly up off the bloody ground and started westward.
There came boom and bust, bankruptcy, depression.
Great public thieves came along and picked the pockets of everyone who had a pocket.
To hell with that rotten century!
Let’s get it over and the door closed shut on it! Let’s close it like a book and go on reading! New
chapter, new life. A man will have clean hands once we get the lid slammed shut on that stinking
century. It’s a fair thing ahead. There’s no rot on this clean new hundred years. It’s not stacked, and
any bastard who deals seconds from this new deck of years—why, we’ll crucify him head down over a
privy.
Oh, but strawberries will never taste so good again and the thighs of women have lost their clutch!
