e wanted to begin our journey together by seeing where I lived. I think he felt seeing it would unlock all the great mysteries about me to him. I didn’t agree, I felt it would merely unlock a door to an unkempt studio flat and send putrid fish smell blasting in his face. Metaphor understanding was merely the beginning of our differences. We were debating it when Claire returned from the hospital and looked anxiously at the stranger and me sitting on the floor outside her apartment. I stood immediately.

‘I didn’t let him in,’ I said.

Her face softened, and she looked at him. ‘You must think I’m rude.’

‘No, you’re perfectly right,’ Life said. ‘Though I’m surprised you let her in.’

She smiled. ‘I appreciate Lucy’s help.’

‘How’s your mother?’ he asked.

I knew he was still testing my alibi and I’d passed the test, because her face said it all. Nobody could pretend to be so distraught.

‘She’s stable … for now,’ she said. ‘How’s Conor?’

‘Em. He’s asleep.’

‘Did he drink his bottle?’

‘Yes.’ I’d poured it down the sink.

She seemed happy and fumbled in her bag for her purse and produced some cash. ‘This is for your time, thank you so much,’ she said, thrusting it at me. I really wanted to take it. Really. Sebastian needed so much repair work, the carpet still needed to be cleaned, my hair could do with a professional blowdry, I could do with buying something other than microwave dinners but no, Life was watching me so I did the right thing.

‘I couldn’t possibly take that.’ I pushed the words out, though they were dying to stay inside. ‘It was my pleasure, really.’

Then came the moment. I put the key in the lock and turned it. I held out my hand for him to enter before me. He looked excited. I felt anything but. I followed him and closed the door, painfully aware of the smell and hoping he would be polite enough not to mention it. Mr Pan stirred and stretched, and then came slinking forward to meet our new guest, his hips slowly and lazily going from side to side in a hypnotic state like the campest cat in the world. He looked at my life and then ran himself along his legs, tail high in the air.

‘You have a cat,’ he said and went to his knees and stroked him. Mr Pan bathed in the glory of his attention.

‘This is Mr Pan, Mr Pan this is … what do I call you?’

‘Life.’

‘I can’t introduce you to people as that, we’ll have to think of a name.’

He shrugged, ‘I don’t care.’

‘Okay Engelbert.’

‘I don’t want to be called Engelbert.’ He looked around the room at my numerous Gene Kelly photographs in frames, and at the poster for Singin’ in the Rain on the bathroom door. ‘Call me Gene.’

‘No, you can’t be called that.’ There were only so many Genes I could have in my life. One, and a Don Lockwood whom I’d told never to call me again.

‘Who’s the other guy?’ he asked.

‘Donald O’Connor, he plays Cosmo Brown.’

He put on an American fifties accent. ‘Well then, call me Cosmo Brown.’

‘I’m not introducing you to people as Cosmo.’

‘It’s Cosmo or Life, doll.’

‘Okay, fine. Let me show you around.’ I stood at the front door like an air steward and held out my arms as if going through the emergency procedures. ‘To my left is the bathroom. If you want to use it you must put on the kitchen extractor fan light as the bulb is gone in there. To my right is the kitchen. Further to my left is the bedroom and further to the right is the living room. Tour over.’ I bowed. He could see everything from where he stood, all he had to do was move his eyes.

He surveyed the space.

‘So what do you think?’

‘It stinks of fish. And what is that on the carpet?’

I sighed. He couldn’t even do a minute of politeness, the very foundations which my life was built on. ‘It’s prawn cocktail, Mr Pan spilled it and walked it into the floor. Okay?’

‘Okay, but I meant that.’ He pointed at the writing on the carpet.

‘Oh, that’s the name of a carpet-cleaning company.’

‘Of course it is.’ He looked at me and his eyes were smiling. ‘I’m not going to ask why it’s written on the floor. Call them,’ he said and went straight to my corner cupboard and rummaged through my treats. Mr Pan followed at his heel, the traitor. Life sat up on the counter and munched on some cookies, which annoyed me, I was planning on eating them for dinner. ‘The carpet is disgusting; you have to call them.’

‘I don’t have time to stay home from work to let them in. Things like that are always a bother.’

‘Ask them to come at the weekend and if they can’t, there’s always the strong possibility that you’ll be fired tomorrow.’

‘I thought you were supposed to make me feel better.’

‘I thought you wanted to get fired.’

‘I did. But I wanted a redundancy package, not to get fired just because I don’t speak Spanish.’

‘It’s hardly a small detail, you are supposed to be their languages expert.’

‘I speak five other languages,’ I snapped.

‘Ooh, but you don’t speaketh the truth,’ he laughed before putting an entire cookie in his mouth.

I looked him up and down, disgusted. ‘You have moobs.’

‘What’s that?’

‘Check it in your little computer, why don’t you.’

‘I will.’ He took out his iPhone. ‘Now call them, the carpet is disgusting. It hasn’t been properly cleaned since you moved in and I suspect even longer so it’s got yours and some stranger’s skin and hair and toenails, and cat hairs and whatever bugs and bacteria are living on him engrained in it and every time you breathe in, you are inhaling it into your lungs.’

Disgusted, I immediately grabbed his phone from his hand but he held on tight. ‘That’s my phone, use your own. I’m Googling “moobs”.’

I blocked my nose and dialled directory enquiries to connect me. A second before it was answered I hoped Don would answer again. But he didn’t. It was an older man named Roger and in two minutes I’d arranged for him to call by on Sunday. I ended the call feeling quite proud of myself. I had done something. But Life wasn’t about to congratulate me, he was glaring at me angrily.

‘What?’

‘Man boobs.’

I laughed. ‘Well, you’ve let yourself go a little, haven’t you?’

‘Through no fault of my own.’

‘I work out five days a week,’ I defended myself.

‘Which is probably the only reason why we’re both still standing,’ he said, hopping off the counter, climbing over the back of the couch and sitting down.

‘I can’t help commenting on your appearance. You look so … dirty. You need a make-over. Do you have anything else in your wardrobe?’ I paused. ‘Do you have a wardrobe?’

‘This isn’t Clueless, Lucy, I’m not a project. You don’t get to spend a day polishing my nails and perming my hair and everything is okay again.’

‘What about a back, sack and crack?’

‘You’re disgusting and I’m ashamed to be your life.’ He bit into another cookie and nodded in the direction of my bed. ‘Any visitors over there?’

‘I don’t feel comfortable talking to you about that.’

‘Because I’m a man?’

‘Because … I don’t think it’s important. And yes. Because you’re a man. But I’m not prudish.’ I raised my chin, and then climbed over the back of the couch to join him. ‘The answer is no, nobody has ever been in here but that’s not to say there hasn’t been any activity.’

‘That’s disgusting.’ He rolled up his nose.

‘I don’t mean in that bed.’ I rolled my eyes. ‘I mean in my life.’

‘Hold on.’ He smiled and reached into his rucksack and took out an iPad. ‘That’d be Alex Buckley,’ he read. ‘Stockbroker, you met him in a bar, you liked his tie, he liked your tits but he didn’t say that out loud. Not to you anyway, he did say it to his colleague Tony who replied, “Why the fuck not.” Charming. But he did say to you and I quote, “There must be something wrong with my eyes, I can’t seem to take them off you.” Unquote.’ He howled laughing. ‘That works for you?’

‘No.’ I picked at a feather in the cushion, pulled it out. Mr Pan watched me, moved closer to play with the feather. ‘But the drinks he bought for me did. Anyway, he was nice.’

‘You went back to his place,’ he read, then he looked disgusted. ‘I don’t think I need to read all of this. Bla bla bla, then you left before breakfast. That was ten months ago.’

‘That wasn’t ten months ago, that was …’ I counted back in my head. ‘Well, it wasn’t ten months ago anyway.’

‘Last time you saw any action,’ he said, mock-disapprovingly. ‘Outside of this apartment anyway.’

‘Shut up about that. So I’m fussy when it comes to men. I can’t just sleep with any guy.’

‘Yes, because Alex Buckley the stockbroker who liked your tits was so special.’

I laughed. ‘You know what I mean.’

‘Fussy is an understatement.’ He became serious. ‘You’re just not remotely ready for men. You’re not over Blake.’

‘I’m so over Blake, it’s ridiculous,’ I exaggerated, sounding like a petulant teen.

‘You’re not. If you were over him, every man you’ve met since would not have involved a large intake of alcohol. If you were over him, you’d be able to move on and meet someone new.’

‘May I remind you that feeling complete is not about meeting a man. It’s about being content within yourself.’ I tried not to laugh when I said it.

‘To thine own self be true,’ he said and nodded. ‘I believe that. But if you’re unable to meet somebody else because you’re stuck in the past then that’s a problem.’

‘Who says it’s my problem? I’m always open to meeting someone new.’ I grabbed the cookies from him.

‘What about the guy in the café, the Sunday we met? I practically threw him at you and you didn’t give him half a look. Quote, “I have to go see my boyfriend,”’ he mimicked me. ‘Unquote.’

I gasped. ‘You set me up?’

‘I had to see how bad you were.’

‘I knew it. I knew he was too attractive to be a normal person, he was an actor.’

‘He wasn’t an actor. You’re not getting this. I synchronised your lives. Made your paths cross in order for something to happen.’

‘But nothing happened so you failed,’ I snapped.

‘Something did happen. You turned him down and he went back to his girlfriend whom he was missing dearly and was regretting breaking up with. Your response to him made him realise.’

‘How dare you use me like that.’

‘How am I using you? How else do you think life happens? A series of coincidences and occurrences have to happen somehow. Our lives all crash and collide and you think there’s no reason or rhyme to it? If there wasn’t any reason for it all, what would be the point? Why do you think anything happens at all? There is an outcome, repercussions and occurrences to everybody you meet and everything you say. Honestly, Lucy.’ He shook his head and bit into another cookie.

‘But that’s the point, I didn’t think there was one.’

‘Was a what?’

‘A point!’

He frowned, confused. Then he got it. ‘Lucy, there’s always a point.’

I wasn’t sure I believed that. ‘Who else have you synchronised my life with?’

‘Lately? Not many that would stand out to you. Just that nice American lady at reception. I can tell by your face you’re shocked by that one, and by the way, you can thank her I’m here today because it was her that made me want to give you another chance after our last meeting.’

‘Like you weren’t desperate to meet me again anyway.’

‘Believe me, I wasn’t. But when you left her the chocolate bar I had a Willy Wonka moment.’

‘Is that secret code for something private?’

‘No. You know the part where Slugworth tells Charlie to steal the everlasting gobstopper and he’ll take care of his family forever but Charlie doesn’t and leaves the gobstopper on Wonka’s office desk at the end of the film which shows Wonka Charlie’s true worth as a person?’

‘You’ve just given the whole thing away.’

‘Shut up, you’ve seen it twenty-six times. You left the bar of chocolate for Mrs Morgan and that was a very thoughtful thing to do.’

‘Yeah, well, she said she liked them.’

‘It reminded me that you do have a heart, you do care about people, that’s never been the problem. I just have to try to make you care about me.’

That just simply broke my heart. Nobody had ever uttered words like that to me before and there he was, this young exhausted desperate-looking man with bad breath and a crumpled suit just wanting to be liked.

‘So that was the point to you hiring her? So that I could get another chance with you?’

He looked surprised. ‘I never thought about it like that.’ Then suddenly he yawned. ‘Where am I sleeping?’

‘Wherever you usually sleep.’

‘I think I should stay here, Lucy.’

‘OK, that’s no problem,’ I said calmly. ‘I’ll just be at my friend Melanie’s house if you need me.’

‘Ah yes, Melanie, who’s annoyed at you leaving everything so early all of the time.’ He messed around on his iPad again. ‘The same Melanie who said straight after you left the restaur ant the other day, quote, “There’s something up with her, I can’t wait to get her on her own to find out what,” unquote.’ He looked pleased as punch. I was horrified. Time alone was not what I needed with Melanie right now and I wasn’t going to go back to Riley’s to stay with him and Mum.

‘You can sleep on the couch,’ I said, defeated, then climbed over the back of the couch to get to my bed.

He slept on the couch with Mr Pan, covered by a spare dusty blanket that I dug out from the top of the wardrobe while he shone the torch inside for me, all the time tutting. Not out loud, but I could hear it in my head, a constant rhythmic tut-tut-tut-tut like the grandfather clock we had in the echoey hall when I was a child that used to scare me and keep me awake at night until I stuffed a pillow in its pendulum and then blamed it on Riley. He snored so loudly that for the first time in a long time, my life kept me awake all night. Remembering the grandfather clock trick, I threw a pillow at him somewhere around two a.m. but I missed and ended up sending Mr Pan into a fit. Four minutes past eleven was the last time I saw on the clock before I fell asleep and was woken at six by him taking a shower, then he sneaked out and arrived back shortly afterwards, clattering the keys down on the counter and banging around and making enough noise to wake the building. I knew he was trying to disturb me so I deliberately kept my eyes closed at least ten minutes longer than I actually wanted. Finally the smell stirred me. He was sitting at the counter eating an omelette. His shirt sleeves were rolled up to his elbows, his hair was wet and slicked back. He looked different. He looked clean.

‘Good morning,’ he said.

‘Wow. Your breath doesn’t smell bad any more.’

He looked insulted. ‘Whatever,’ he said, going back to reading the paper. ‘Your words can’t hurt me. I got you coffee and the crossword.’

I was taken aback, genuinely touched. ‘Thanks.’

‘And I bought a bulb for your bathroom light. You can put it in yourself though.’

‘Thank you.’

‘And that omelette is still hot.’

On the counter was a ham, cheese and red pepper omelette.

‘Thanks so much,’ I smiled. ‘That’s really thoughtful of you.’

‘No problem.’

We sat in silence together, eating, listening to a man and a woman on breakfast television hop from soap gossip to current affairs and then to a recent study into teenage acne. I didn’t replace the bulb; it would have taken too much effort and too much time in a morning that was already rushed after sitting down and eating a normal breakfast. I left the door ajar and took a shower, all the time watching the door to make sure my life wasn’t a perv. I got dressed in the bathroom. When I came out, he was ready with his rucksack and his crinkled suit. I had been surprisingly comfortable with him but all of a sudden I smelled a rat. There was always a catch.

‘Well, I guess this is goodbye for today,’ I said hopefully.

‘I’m coming to work with you,’ he said.

I was nervous going into the office, obviously because I had to face everybody after Tuesday’s incident but mostly because I had Life with me. I was just hoping that security would rid me of at least one problem. I swiped my ID card and the barrier moved for me to pass. Life walked into the bar directly behind me and I heard him make a sound as if he’d been winded. I tried not to smile but failed miserably.

‘Hey,’ security called. They were vigilant at the best of times but after the episode with Steve they were on high alert.

I turned around and tried to look as apologetic as possible at Life. ‘Look, I’m going to be late, I have to run. I’ll catch up with you at lunchtime, okay?’

His mouth fell open and I turned around and hurried to the elevator, trying to blend in with the crowd as if I was being chased. As I was waiting I watched the security guard twice Life’s width make his way over to him as if he was going to bash him. Life reached into his rucksack and pulled out some paperwork. The security guard took it as though it were a piece of rotten fish and read through it. Then he looked at me, looked back to the paper, looked at my life, then gave the paper back to him and walked back to his desk. He pressed the button behind it and the barrier opened.

‘Thanks,’ Life called. The security guard waved him on. Life smiled smugly at me and we rode the stuffed elevator together in silence. The usual suspects were in the office before I got there, huddled together and quite obviously talking about me because as soon as I entered they hushed and looked up. All eyes immediately went to Life. Then back to me.

‘Hi, Lucy,’ Nosy said. ‘Is that your lawyer?’

‘Why, are you looking for one for the wedding?’ I answered cattily.

Graham didn’t laugh and that put me off a bit, he always laughed at my crap jokes. I wondered if that meant he wasn’t going to be a sex pest any more and that bothered me too. My response to Louise had been a cheap comeback, but in reality it was disguising the fact that I didn’t know what to say. I’d had a lot of time to think about how to introduce my life to people but beyond calling him Cosmo – which I guessed would create more questions than answers – I still couldn’t think of a story. I could think of a perfectly good lie. I could think of many perfectly good lies; he was a terminally ill patient whose final wish was to spend time with me, he was an out-of-town cousin, he was a college boy looking for some experience, he was a mentally ill friend on day release, he was a journalist writing an article on modern-day working women and chose me as his subject. All of these things I’m sure everybody would believe but Life would not approve of. I was trying to come up with the perfect lie that he would approve of, which was ironic because in the history of the entire world, I guessed there probably hadn’t been one of those yet and probably never ever would be. Edna saved me from the siege of looks, stares, and pending questions and accusations by calling me into the office for a session of the same, but at least with her it was one-on-one and I could take her on. As I made my way to her office, I smiled at the others, sweet and apologetic for having to part company with them. I turned to Life before I went in and under my breath said, ‘Are you going to wait out here?’

‘No, I’ll go in with you,’ he said, keeping his voice at a normal level, which stopped me from speaking any further.

I went into Edna’s office and sat down at the circular table she had by her window. She had a fake white rose in a tall slim vase, and a copy of Ulysses on the shelf behind her desk; two of the things on my list that always annoyed me about her because I despised fake flowers and guessed she had probably never read Ulysses in her life but liked how having it on her shelf made her look. She looked at my life.

‘Hello,’ she said in a who are you kind of way.

‘Ms Larson, my name is…’ he looked at me and I saw his lips twitch as he fought a smile, ‘Cosmo Brown. I have some paperwork here for you which details how I’m allowed to be with Lucy Silchester at all times, and includes confidentiality agreements which have been signed by me and have been stamped and notarised by a recognised notary. You can trust that anything I learn about the company in this conversation will not go any further but anything that is discussed with Lucy regarding her personal life will be well within my rights to discuss as I so wish.’

She took the paperwork and as she read, I saw the realisation pass over her face. ‘Okay Mr Brown, please have a seat.’

‘Please, call me Cosmo,’ he smiled and I knew it was a dig at me.

She looked at him when she spoke. ‘This meeting is about the events which took place on Tuesday. I’m sure you’re aware of the incident regarding Steven Roberts.’

Life nodded.

‘Excuse me, do you have to address him when you speak about me?’ I looked at Life. ‘Does she have to address you?’

‘She can look at whoever she likes, Lucy.’

‘But it doesn’t have to be you.’

‘No, it doesn’t have to be me.’

‘Okay.’ I looked back at Edna. ‘You don’t have to address him.’

‘Thank you, Lucy. Now, where was I?’ She returned her gaze to Life. ‘So what we are going to discuss is not what happened to Steve, though if there are any personal worries that Lucy has about what happened and frankly I wouldn’t be surprised if there were, then as her immediate superior I am the person she can speak to about any issue that arises from what happened—’

‘Eh, excuse me, but I’m here. You don’t have to speak as though I’m not here.’

She looked at me then, fixed me with a steely stare and I wished she’d continued looking at Life. ‘This meeting is to do with the revelation that surfaced from those events in which we discovered that you can’t actually speak any Spanish.’

‘I can speak Spanish. I was just under so much pressure. There was a gun in my face and I couldn’t think.’

Edna looked relieved and she finally softened. ‘Lucy, that is what I assumed, I mean, my goodness, I could barely remember my own name under the circumstances and I was just hoping to hear confirmation of that. As you can understand I have to officially go about—’

‘Excuse me, can I interrupt here?’ Life said.

I looked at him with wide eyes. ‘I don’t think you’re allowed to.’ I looked at Edna. ‘Is he allowed to? I think he’s just supposed to witness my life and not actually partake in any—’

‘No, no, I’m allowed to partake,’ he said to me. Then he looked at Edna. ‘I’d like to confirm that Lucy cannot speak Spanish.’

My mouth dropped. Edna’s eyes widened even more than her fish eyes.

‘I’m sorry, did you say “can” or “cannot”?’

‘I will verify that I said “cannot”.’ He said the word slowly and accentuated the t. ‘She,’ he pointed at me to make sure we were all totally clear it was not the fake rose on the table that we were talking about, ‘is unable to speak Spanish. I think there is a danger here of you being deceived again and it’s only appropriate that I jump in and keep you wise to the situation.’ He looked at me as if to say, That okay? Did I handle that well?

I was speechless. My life had stabbed me in the back. Edna was momentarily speechless too but then she found her voice again. She continued to talk to him instead of me.

‘Cosmo, I’m sure you understand that this is a very serious situation.’

I felt beads of sweat break out on my forehead.

‘Of course,’ he agreed.

‘And so as Lucy is employed as our language specialist for the manual and has been for the past two and a half years, I am concerned that her lack of knowledge of Spanish has put the customers who buy the products in grave danger and the company in jeopardy. I mean, who on earth was writing the Spanish translations? Were they even accurate? Were they from a dictionary?’

‘They were from a very reputable national Spanish speaker whose translations of the appliance directions have been second to none,’ I said quickly.

‘Well, you don’t actually know that,’ Life said.

‘There have never been any complaints,’ I said, tired of being stabbed in the back.

‘That we know of,’ Edna said and Life agreed.

‘Who is this person who was translating the work for you?’ Edna asked, unable to hide the shock from her voice.

‘From a reputable—’

‘You said that,’ he interrupted.

‘—Spanish business person,’ I continued anyway. ‘It was actually more of a sub-contract than cheating though I know nobody has brought up that word but that is what I’ve been made to feel like I’m doing.’ I took the high ground. ‘Look, I speak every other language perfectly, that is definitely not a lie, tell her.’

I looked at Life to back me up but he put up his hands. ‘I don’t think that’s my role here.’

I gulped and lowered my voice. ‘Look, if you could just allow me to keep my job, please, then maybe let Quentin do the Spanish translations and it’s all kept in-house and it’s all perfectly legal and there’s nothing to worry about. I apologise profusely for not telling the complete truth—’

‘For lying,’ Life said.

‘For not telling the complete truth,’ I continued.

‘For lying.’ He looked at me. ‘You lied.’

‘Look, who doesn’t lie on their resumé?’ I finally snapped. ‘Everybody does. Ask any of those guys out there if they’ve ever lied and they’ll all tell you they exaggerated the truth a little. I bet you have too.’ I looked at Edna. ‘You’ve said you worked at Global Maximum for four years and everyone knows it was only two years, and half of that was in junior management and not senior like you said you were.’

Edna’s eyes widened. Then realising what I’d said, mine did too.

‘But that’s not to say you lied, I just mean we all exaggerate the truth, that’s not to take away from any accomplishments that you or I may or may not have—’

‘Okay, I think I may have heard enough here,’ Edna said, massaging her temples. ‘I’m going to have to bring this up on a higher level.’

‘No, please don’t do that.’ I reached across and held her arm. ‘Please don’t. Look, there’s nothing to worry about. You know legal wouldn’t have cleared any manual we did if it all wasn’t one hundred per cent accurate. Things get checked all the time, I’m not the person with the last say here. So nothing can backfire on you and if it ever ever did, then you’ve nothing to worry about because you didn’t know. Nobody knew.’

‘Did Quentin know?’ she asked, her eyes narrowed.

‘Why do you ask?’ I frowned.

‘Just tell me the truth, Lucy. Quentin knew, didn’t he?’

I was taken aback. ‘Nobody knew.’

‘But he knew on Tuesday, when Steve was asking you to translate. He knew then, he was straight up from under the table.’

‘I think everyone knew then, it was obvious I hadn’t a word in my head.’

‘I think you’re lying again,’ she said.

‘No, I’m not. Okay, I’m not exactly lying, I think Quentin found out a little earlier when—’

Edna shook her head. ‘How much else do I have to pull out of you, Lucy? I mean—’

‘No no, listen,’ I interrupted. ‘He only knew a couple of minutes earlier when I was trying to speak to Augusto Fernández.’

She wasn’t really listening to me. She had given up. ‘I don’t know.’ She was tidying her paperwork away and she stood. ‘I don’t know what to believe any more. Frankly, I’m surprised at you, Lucy, I really thought that you of all people had it all together, out of everyone in this …’ She looked out at the desks outside. ‘Well anyway, I’m surprised at you. But then,’ she looked at Life, ‘I thought the same about my sister and she found herself in the same,’ she searched for a word to describe my current situation, ‘predicament as this.’

Life nodded as if they’d shared a secret.

She sighed. ‘Quentin did know, he didn’t know, you don’t seem to be very clear or convincing on that fact.’

‘No, no, I’m sure about this, please—’

‘I think we’ve taken enough time here,’ she said. ‘Why don’t you go back and join the others and I’ll have a think about what we’ve discussed. Thank you, Lucy. Thank you, Cosmo.’

She shook both our hands and I was quickly ushered out of her office. I went back to my desk in shock at what had occurred. Life followed me. Sat down at the empty desk that looked directly opposite. He drummed his fingers on the table.

‘So what do you do now?’ he said. ‘Want me to photocopy anything?’

‘I can’t believe you did that,’ I said. ‘I just can’t believe you had the nerve to do that to me. What happened to the we’re a team talk? You were just sweet-talking me so you could make a fucking fool out of me.’ I raised my voice by accident and the others looked over at me. ‘I’m going for a cigarette,’ I said, then stood up and left the room, my chin high and mighty as I made my way under everybody’s watchful gaze.

The last thing I heard before I left the room was his voice loud and clear saying, ‘She doesn’t smoke. She pretends to, to get extra breaks.’

I slammed the door behind me.