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Dottie Walters

 
 
 
 
 
Tác giả: Kristin Hannah
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Chapter 5
he Outlaw Tavern was filled with the regular Friday night crowd. While the band played a watery, slowed-down version of “Mamas, Don’t Let Your Babies Grow Up to Be Cowboys,” couples line-danced across the parquet floor. Vivi Ann sat at her usual barstool, swaying to the music. She had a nice buzz going. Swiveling on her seat, she looked for someone to dance with, but couldn’t find anyone who wasn’t already paired up. Aurora and Richard were back at the pool tables playing a game with some friends, and Winona was deep in conversation with Mayor Trumbull.
Vivi Ann was about to turn back around to the bar when she noticed the Indian standing by the cash register. Anyone unknown would have stood out in this crowd of locals, but she was certain that this guy would be noticeable in any crowd. With his long hair and dark skin and hawkish features, he looked a little like Daniel Day-Lewis in that upcoming movie, The Last of the Mohicans.
He caught her looking at him and smiled.
Before she could turn around or pretend she hadn’t seen him, he was coming toward her. She wanted to look away, but she couldn’t make herself move.
“You wanna dance?”
“I don’t think so.”
He smiled, but it didn’t quite change the harshness of his face. “You’re afraid. I get it. Nice white girls like you are always scared.”
“I’m not scared.”
“Good.” He reached for her hand, took it in his. She noticed the roughness of his skin—so different from Luke’s—and the possessiveness of his grip as he pulled her onto the dance floor and into his arms. The way he did it surprised her; even more surprising was the tiny thrill she felt.
“I’m Dallas,” he said at a lull in the music.
“Vivi Ann.”
“You got a boyfriend? That why you keep looking around? Or you afraid the neighbors won’t like you dancing with an Indian?”
“Yes. No. I mean—”
“Where is he?”
“Not here.”
“I bet he treats you like some kind of pretty little treasure. Like you’ll break if he’s too rough.”
Vivi Ann drew in a breath and looked up at him. “How do you know that?”
He didn’t answer. Instead, he pulled her close and kissed her.
For a split second—she was sure it was no longer that that—Vivi Ann felt herself giving in.
Then someone was pulling her away from Dallas. A group of men crowded forward, pushing her out of the way. They were muttering angrily to themselves and each other, but it was Dallas who held her attention. He looked deadly calm, and when he smiled, she thought: Someone’s going to get hurt.
“Get on outta here. Vivi Ann don’t need trash like you.” That was from Erik Engstrom, her third-grade boyfriend.
“Stop it,” Vivi Ann yelled. Her voice was like a rock breaking through glass, catching everyone’s attention. “What’s wrong with you?”
“We were just standin’ up for you, Vivi,” Butchie said, fisting his hands.
“You’re idiots, all of you. Go back to your tables.”
Grudgingly, the crowd dispersed, walked away. She was left alone with Dallas.
“I’m sorry about that,” she said, looking up at him. “We don’t get many strangers here.”
“I can see why.” Smiling as if it had all meant nothing, he leaned toward her, whispered, “Nice kiss,” in her ear, and then he walked away, leaving her standing alone beneath the hot lights, feeling unsettled.
“What happened?” Winona said a minute later, coming up so fast she was out of breath. “I came back from the bathroom and someone said—”
“I danced with a guy. Big deal.”
Aurora sidled in close. “Way to pick ’em, Vivi. Very classy.”
Vivi Ann didn’t know what to say. Her whole body felt odd, like an engine idling too fast. “Don’t be a bitch, Aurora.”
“Me? Never. I know how much you love a man with tattoos.” Aurora laughed. “And an Indian, too.”
“She danced with an Indian?” Winona asked sharply. “With tattoos? What did he look like?”
“Hot,” Aurora said immediately.
Vivi Ann looked away, unwilling to see the judgment in Winona’s gaze. “Dallas somebody.”
“Like his name matters,” Aurora said. “How was the kiss?”
“She kissed him?” Winona said. “In front of everyone?”
Vivi Ann would have sworn her sister was smiling when she said it. “Come on,” she snapped. “I need a drink.”
Aurora laughed. “I’ll bet you do.”
When Vivi Ann woke the next morning she felt edgy and restless, and, worst of all, aroused. Putting on her robe, she went into the bathroom and brushed her teeth, then headed down the hallway.
Her father stood by the fireplace in the living room, watching her come down the stairs.
Winona was beside him, already dressed for work in a blue dress that was stretched tight across her chest.
“Good morning,” Vivi Ann said, tightening her robe’s belt around her waist.
“It don’t look good from where I’m standin’,” her father said. “My daughter makin’ out with some Indian in front of God and everyone.”
She missed a step. She’d known he would hear about it, of course. In a town like theirs, what she’d done was certainly gossip-worthy. She’d just thought she’d be able to tell him her version first. Whatever her version was. “It was nothing, Daddy, really. Tell him, Win. The gossip will die down in no time.”
“They were drinking and dancing,” Winona said. “You know how she flirts when she’s drinking.”
“Win!” Vivi Ann said, shocked by her sister’s disloyalty. “That’s not true—”
“Fire him,” Dad said.
“What do you mean, fire him?” Vivi Ann asked.
“We can’t. He signed a contract.” Winona looked right at her. “You were sucking face with our new ranch hand last night.”
This was coming at Vivi Ann too fast. She felt as if she were suddenly in a boat that was taking on water.
“I’m ashamed of you,” her father said.
Vivi Ann was shaken by those hard words. She’d never heard them from him before, never imagined it to be even possible that she’d shame him. Years of connection seemed fragile; for the first time she wondered if his love was as conditional as her sisters always said it was, and that frightened her. He was the bedrock, the solid ground of their family. A crack in that was inconceivable.
While she was trying to figure out what to say, someone knocked on the door. She knew who it would be. “Did you tell him?” she asked her sister.
“Half the town was there, Vivi,” Winona said, and she should have looked angry, but in that strange, surreal moment, as Vivi Ann’s panic poked through, she thought Winona looked pleased. And she hadn’t answered the question, not really.
The door opened and Luke stood there, dressed in his Dockers and a plaid flannel shirt, as if this were an ordinary morning visit. But his hair was damp and unbrushed.
She moved toward him, desperate suddenly to undo all of this. “Tell them none of this matters, Luke. You know we love each other.” When he said nothing, her panic increased. “We’re getting married. Tell Daddy there’s nothing to worry about.”
“You’re engaged?” Dad said.
Vivi Ann turned to her father. “We were waiting for the right time to tell everyone.”
Dad finally smiled. “Good. This is over, then. Our first jackpot is startin’ in two hours and we got plenty to do to get ready. I’ll go talk to our new man, tell him what’s what. He’d best mind his p’s and q’s from now on or I’ll fire him. I don’t care about no contract.”
As soon as he left, Vivi Ann started to pull away from Luke, but he took hold of her hand and wouldn’t let her leave.
“Did you kiss him back?” he asked.
“Of course not.” She felt Winona watching them from across the room.
He tilted her chin up. She knew the second before she saw his face that it would be creased with worry, that those clean, honest eyes of his would be colored by doubt. She knew, too, that he would believe her because he wanted to.
“Are we okay?” he asked.
“We’re fine.”
“You’ve made me the happiest man in Oyster Shores.”
It should have been a romantic moment.
But already she knew she’d made a mistake.
You’ve made me the happiest man in Oyster Shores.
The sentence kept coming back to Winona, playing and replaying. She saw the whole tragic scene in slow motion: Vivi Ann coming down the stairs, her beautiful face registering surprise when she realized what was happening... Dad, turning on Vivi Ann for once, telling her he was ashamed... and then Luke walking in, his eyes shadowed with doubt and heartbreak.
Winona had wanted to go to him, say, She always breaks hearts, and be there for him. She’d even dared to imagine that, to hope for it. Then...
We’re getting married.
Three words that turned everything around, three words that returned the luster to Vivi Ann’s reputation, three words that made the old man smile.
Winona sat in the living room, still as a stone, hearing their conversation but not really listening. She could get the drift of it without the words. They were no doubt exchanging the honeyed words of new fiancés everywhere. Stuff about love and ceremonies and dreams.
They seemed to have forgotten she was here, or they didn’t care. She was just another piece of bulky furniture in the room.
She got up slowly, schooled her face into impassivity, and went to them. She almost paused, almost uttered a wooden congratulations, but as she approached them, Luke pulled Vivi Ann into his arms and kissed her.
It was the first time Winona had seen them really kiss, and she stopped, unable to look away.
And then she was moving again, across the living room, onto the porch, and to her car. She drove too fast up the driveway, surprised to find that she was crying as she came to Orca Way. She wiped her eyes impatiently and turned right.
A block later she hit the brake and came to a sudden stop, right there in the middle of the street.
We’re getting married.
How could Luke and Dad be so stupid? Couldn’t they see that Vivi Ann was acting out of desperation, chewing off her foot to get free of the trap of their disappointment?
“Don’t think about it,” she muttered aloud. She had to find a way not to care. Aurora was right. Winona had always known that. Sisters trumped men. She had to stop wanting Luke or it would destroy them all. But how did you go about such a thing? All the rationalizations in the world hadn’t worked. A seed of discontent had been planted deep inside of her, and even now she could feel it putting down roots.
Hours after the roping had ended, Vivi Ann sat on the arena’s rail, staring down at the loamy brown dirt. The last twenty-four hours had been among the worst of her life. Gossip about her behavior last night had swept through town like a brush fire. News of her engagement to Luke had put out the flames, but people were watching her closely, whispering as she passed.
“Hey.”
She glanced to her left.
Dallas stood in the barn’s open doorway, a tall shadow against the tangerine evening light behind him. In the muddy bog of this day, she’d almost forgotten about him. Almost.
“How long have you been standing there?”
“Long enough.”
Easing down from the rail, she walked toward him.
“Anyone ever tell you you don’t know how to run a jackpot?”
She sighed. That should be obvious to everyone by now. “Did you get something to eat?”
“Yep.” He tipped his hat just enough so that she could see his eyes. They were gray as the Sound in winter. Unreadable. “So who’s gonna fire me? You or Daddy?”
It had been one day and already she was sick to death of hearing about that kiss. “It’s 1992, Dallas, not 1892. I’m the one who is in trouble for it, not you.”
“I tarnish your shiny reputation?”
“Something like that. I actually figured you’d quit after that fiasco at the bar.”
“I look like the kind of guy who quits?” He moved toward her. “Or maybe you figure all Indians are shiftless. Is that why your friends came after me for kissing you?”
“No one cares that you’re In—Native American. It was about me. I was Pearl Princess, for gosh sakes. Four times. And everyone likes my boyfriend. You could have been as white as Dracula and they still would have wanted to kick your ass.”
“Pearl Princess, huh?” He moved closer, smiling. “You must have some special talent, then, like tossing flaming batons or singing elevator music?”
“What I have is a boyfriend. A fiancé,” she corrected, tilting her chin up. “Did you get that part?”
“This fiancé,” Dallas said, whispering now, leaning close. “He know you kissed me back?”
Vivi Ann pushed past him and walked away, saying over her shoulder, “Tomorrow is Sunday. I don’t suppose you go to church, but we do, so I don’t make breakfast, and it’s the only day I feed the horses. Come to the house at four p.m. sharp or I’ll toss your supper to the gulls.”
When she got into the house, she found her father waiting for her. “Perfect,” she muttered, taking off her boots and setting them by the door. She definitely did not want to talk to her father. What would be a good topic? The gossip about last night? Her engagement? The botched roping? Dallas?
“I’m going to bed, Dad. We’ll talk tomorrow.” Keeping her head down, she headed for the stairs. She was halfway up when she heard him say:
“You stay away from that Indian.”
She said nothing and kept moving. In the bathroom, as she brushed her teeth and changed her clothes, she remembered his admonition.
That Indian.
She’d heard the change in her father’s voice when he said it, the distaste and the prejudice, and for the first time in her life, she was ashamed of him.
Still, she knew it was good advice.
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