"True self is non-self, the awareness that the self is made only of non-self elements. There's no separation between self and other, and everything is interconnected. Once you are aware of that you are no longer caught in the idea that you are a separate entity.",

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Chapter 50
n the bedroom, she moved away from him as soon as he dropped his arm from her waist, and she walked around to the far side of his bed. Turning her back to him, she unclipped an earring and put it on the nightstand.
Despite her smiling audacity a few minutes ago, she was evidently self-conscious about what they were doing, Michael realized, so he permitted her the illusion of privacy. However, since she hadn't asked him not to watch, he stationed himself at the foot of the bed—where he could stop her if she lost her nerve and tried to bolt—and then he indulged himself with the exquisite pleasure of watching the woman he loved getting ready to go to bed with him.
She took off her other earring, placing it on the nightstand; then she reached for her necklace as he unbuttoned his shirt.
She unfastened her bracelet and put it on the nightstand; he unfastened the buttons on his shirt cuffs.
She reached for her zipper; he reached for his belt.
She hesitated, her hands behind her back, near her zipper, he braced for a problem, but kept his tone friendly, offhand. "Need any help over there?"
"No."
She slid the zipper down; he unbuckled his belt.
Her dress went up over her head; his pulse rate climbed with it.
She reached for her bra; he slid down his zipper.
Black lace straps skimmed down her arms; his gaze skimmed down her back, boldly touching. Caressing. She sensed it and shivered. Michael saw it and smiled.
Sheer black panty hose were the last barrier between them, her last safe refuge. He finished undressing, holding his breath when she hesitated with her hands in the band at her waist—unable to breathe when she began to roll them down.
She sat down on the bed to finish, and one long, shapely leg emerged, glowing and bare. He was almost there. One more leg, and she was his. No more need to pretend to her that lovemaking was merely his idea of a casual, but enjoyable, diversion for them.
Bemused, Leigh slowly finished removing her panty hose and stood up to put them on a chair near the bed with her dress. She couldn't believe she was going to let this happen—couldn't believe the tug and pull Michael Valente had always exerted on her. He had treated this like a joke, and she'd actually gone along with it, but it didn't seem very funny anymore. It seemed lonely… impersonal.
She dropped her panty hose on the chair, then gasped as his hands grasped her arms and spun her around, pulling her almost roughly against his chest. Her mouth opened in shock; his mouth seized hers in a possessive, wildly erotic kiss that was stunningly… personal.
She landed forcefully on her back on the bed, and he followed her down. He stretched her arms high overhead, laced his fingers tightly through hers, and held them there while he lowered his head, his mouth plundering hers, his tongue tormenting her. He made her melt; she made him hot.
He lifted his head and gazed into her eyes. His were heavy-lidded with desire; hers were wide with wonder. He bent his head again, and Leigh braced for another turbulent kiss like the last ones, but his mouth brushed hers softly. Unable to touch him, with her hands imprisoned in his, she followed his lead, rubbing her lips over his, and then asking for more. He gave, she took. She offered, he sampled. And then his mouth opened over hers, fiercely insistent and hungry again, his tongue caressing hers, his lips rough and tender. He made her soft and pliant; she made him… definitely not.
He lifted his mouth from hers and brushed it over her cheek, and trailed down farther, and touched it to one breast, then the other. He nuzzled, she gasped. He made them ache, and ache much more, until she whimpered. He made her desperate; she made him yearn.
He stopped, and tenderly laid his cheek against her thundering heart, while he slowly released their hands, and opened them. With his palms flattened and fingers splayed, he brushed his thumbs against her palms in an exploring touch she found strangely stirring; then he slid his fingers slowly down her wrists and forearms and back up again, then down lower in a shifting caress. Mesmerized, Leigh learned how it felt to be wanted in total.
She lifted her arms and kneaded his thick shoulders while his head moved lower. He brushed his lips on her waist, then her navel. It tickled, she giggled. Without warning, he moved even lower. She moaned in shock. And then pleasure.
She dug her nails into his back and shoved her fingers into his hair. Desperate, she pulled his mouth back up to hers and twisted him onto his back and kissed him until she was breathless.
She forgot all Logan had taught her and traded techniques for blazing desire. She crushed her mouth to Michael's lips and flattened her hands on his, following the corded muscles of his arms as he had done with hers. His arms were hard steel and rope, she learned with trembling delight, his mouth was hot velvet. She kissed his eyes, and made him smile. She nuzzled his chest and went lower. She made him gasp. He made her stop.
He rolled her onto her back, holding her mouth locked fiercely to his, and parted her thighs with his legs. With his hips pinning hers, and his rigid body poised to enter her… he stopped.
Leigh waited, breathing fast, her body feverish. She opened her eyes and looked into his. They were blazing. She lifted her hands and with a sense of awe, she touched his face, her fingertips skimming the hard planes of his jaw and cheeks. He entered her an inch. She yearned and lifted her hips. He bent his head and kissed her lips—and drove into her with a sudden force that made her body arch like a bow.
Her body was his violin; he played her steadily until her moans became his song. He changed her melody, the timing of her rhythm. She twisted and clung tightly, then she played her wild crescendo. And timed it perfectly with his.
Shattered, Leigh lay in his arms and buried her face against his chest. Her mind made no comparisons, but her heart already knew the answer: Logan could make her moan. But Michael made her weep.
He spoke, his deep voice like velvet, blanketing her naked body. Quietly and solemnly, he said, "I'm in love with you."
Painfully poignant words. Too soon to hear them from another man; too soon to say them again herself. He wanted her to believe him, she knew, and then he wanted her to say them back. She felt the words, she couldn't say them. She gave him half of what he wanted instead. "I know," she whispered. And in the awful waiting silence that followed her woefully inadequate answer, she leaned up and looked at him with her heart in her eyes.
Michael saw the wonder and tenderness in them. He loved those eyes; he understood. They were telling him everything he wanted her to say—asking him to wait. Just a little while. And then those eyes lowered to his mouth and her lips touched his—brushing softly, slowly, back and forth. She was his.
His hands slid up her back to hold her lips to his. He was hers.
STANDING at the windows in the circle of Michael's arms, Leigh watched dawn lighten the sky over Central Park. Less than twelve hours ago, he had taken her hand and held it for the first time. Since then he had taken her to bed, made love to her twice, and stolen her heart. She leaned back against his solid length, and his hand slid over her breast in a possessive caress. It seemed wrong, foolish, to deny him the truth. "I love you," she said softly.
His arms tightened fiercely around her in response; then his left arm angled downward across her right hip, drawing her closer, as if he wanted to forge their bodies into one being. "I know you do," he whispered against her ear.
Leigh sighed contentedly; everything was resolved at last, serene. He allowed her a full minute to luxuriate in that thought before he said tenderly, and implacably, "Marry me."
Leigh could not possibly agree to that. In one half of one day, she simply would not go from holding hands to making a permanent commitment. He couldn't possibly expect such a thing, and not even Michael Valente could get her to do it. On the other hand, she didn't want to live without him, so she offered a compromise. "I think living together might be a good idea."
"Before or after we're married?"
"Before."
"After," he insisted.
Leigh looked over her shoulder at him in disbelief. "Are you saying we can't be together if we aren't married?"
He looked down at her, grinning. "Do you want to be together?"
She nodded emphatically.
"Do you want to be together very, very much?"
"Yes," she said unhesitatingly, "I do."
"Then those last two words are the ones you'll have to say."
Leigh dropped her head forward and hung it in laughing defeat.
"A nod isn't good enough," he said. "Was that supposed to be a yes?"
Leigh laughed harder and obstinately nodded.
"I can accept two nods," he said agreeably. "In business, two nods are equal to a handshake, and a handshake is contractually binding. Do you want to pick a date, or shall I?"
"I will," Leigh promised.
"That's fine," he said, smiling against her cheek. "What date have you picked?"
"Somehow," she said on a sighing laugh, "I knew you were going to say something like that."
"We've always had a psychic connection. Now, this is a test—what do you think I'm going to say next?"
"'When?'" She guessed with complete conviction.
"I was hoping you'd ask. I think—one month from today."
Leigh was horrified. She didn't want to begin their marriage while they were both tainted with suspicion regarding Logan's murder. Even without that, she was so sleepy at the moment that she could barely stand, let alone think about a wedding date. She closed her eyes and turned her face into his chest, and his hand slid upward from her breast, cradling her cheek against his heart. "I guess we could do it in six months," she whispered, loving the ways he touched her when they weren't making love.
His palm, which had been cradling her cheek, shifted slightly, leaving only the heel of his hand in contact with her chin. Leigh noticed the movement, but she was more intent on hearing his response. The more she thought about it, the more it seemed that six months was an awfully long time to wait, particularly if they weren't living together. She was surprised, and a little disappointed, that he was evidently willing to wait so long. She sighed.
"Too long?" he suggested, his voice tinged with knowing amusement.
Leigh giggled helplessly. "Yes."
"Want to change your mind?"
"Yes."
"Open your eyes."
She opened her eyes and saw the counteroffer he'd been making since his hand moved. In front of her eyes he was holding up two fingers. Two months.
With a smile of defeat, Leigh turned her face and kissed his palm.
He tipped her face up as he lowered his head. "A kiss on the hand," he warned tenderly against her mouth, "is equal to two nods. Very, very binding."
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