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C.S. Lewis

 
 
 
 
 
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Chapter 16
oe watches Alice as she stands outside throwing sticks for Snoop, laughing and reaching down to pet him enthusiastically each time he drops a stick at her feet.
There are times, like this, when he feels as if he barely knows Alice anymore. The Alice he knows is quiet and reserved. The Alice he knows is sophisticated and insouciant. But the Alice he’s watching now throws her head back with laughter as Snoop chases her around in circles.
The Alice he thought he knew would never have dared get grass stains on her trousers, but then again, the Alice he thought he knew would never have worn old faded jeans, a Gap sweatshirt, and a sleeveless down jacket.
But most of all, the Alice he thought he knew always had an air of mystery about her. She always seemed to be living in something of a dream world. Even when they were together, he never felt that she was quite with him, which was undoubtedly part of her attraction for him.
There was a deep air of sadness surrounding the Alice he thought he knew. This Alice, this Alice who is now rolling on the grass and giggling as her dog tries to lick her face, is permanently and deliriously happy.
This Alice wakes up in the morning and bounds out of bed. She is always busy doing something. If not cooking—something she hasn’t done on a regular basis for years—she’s waxing a table, or ripping down a wall, or staining a piece of furniture.
The house seems to be filled with music, and Alice, Alice who has always been so quiet and reserved, bubbles away with conversation. She tells Joe of her trips, her visits to the farmer’s market in Wilton, the people she met while looking for pots of tarragon and lavender at Gilberties. She tells him of her walks on the beach, of the people she passes and the houses she admires. Her newfound joy is bursting out of the cracks in the walls, squeezing under the windowpanes and touching everyone who crosses her path.
Including, naturally, Joe, who refuses to be swept up in her good humor.
Joe cannot understand where his meek, subservient trophy wife has gone. He sees only flashes of her these days in Manhattan. When Alice comes into the city, accompanies him to a party, or a gallery, or a busy bar, she reverts back to the Alice he knows, the Alice he fell in love with.
In Manhattan, the city he is starting to feel he is getting to know, Joe is very definitely king of his world. He is the quintessential Wall Street banker, with enough money to ensure his life runs exactly as he wants it to run. He knows who he is in Manhattan. He knows his role, he knows Alice’s role, and when in the city Alice plays it well, dressing up in her designer clothes and smiling beautifully but blankly at the colleagues and clients with whom he has to socialize.
But out here in Highfield there can be no doubt that Alice is queen of her castle, and despite himself it makes him nervous. The dynamics of their relationship seem to change almost as soon as they cross the border from Westchester into Connecticut.
When Joe thought about a place in the country, he envisaged a large new house, preferably with a pool, and preferably on the beach. He assumed it would have giant power showers and rolling lawns; otherwise, quite frankly, why bother? He never thought his place in the country would be a tiny crappy cottage filled with nooks and crannies.
Of course he still plans to build the house of his dreams on the other side of the lake, although he really hasn’t got time to start researching architects and builders, and Alice doesn’t seem the least bit interested in a different house. But when colleagues ask about his country place, he tells them about the beauty of the land and the pond (true), how it was the deal of the century (true-ish, although not quite as good a deal as George had tried to persuade him it was), and that they’re about to start building the Chambers mansion (not if Alice has anything to do with it).
Joe doesn’t really know what to do with himself out here. He can’t see the point in going for walks, has never understood the point of walking for the sake of it, and so each time Alice asks him to join her, he declines.
Like so many other men who work on Wall Street, Joe finds it almost impossible to relax. For him it means slumping in front of the small television in his office with the Wall Street Journal.
Joe doesn’t like cooking (although he loves eating), and he doesn’t like gardening, and he doesn’t have any hobbies. He doesn’t like animals—although the first time he came upon eighteen wild turkeys meandering up the driveway he had to admit he was awestruck—and he’s too lazy and disinterested to explore the local area.
What Joe does best is socialize, shop, and seduce. Socializing has been difficult because other than Gina and George, he really hasn’t met anyone else down here, and Gina and George, as lovely as they are, are not here every weekend. Shopping is fine if he bothers to go to Greenwich, and seduction is something from which he’s trying very hard to abstain right now.
But the itch is getting stronger. Particularly now that Alice just doesn’t seem to need him as much as she has always done. Joe has always been the strong one in the relationship, has grown accustomed to being dominant, has enjoyed being the strong, manly husband, but just as Alice seems to grow more confident and more powerful as they cross the border into Connecticut, Joe seems to weaken.
He is well aware he does not have the control he is used to in Highfield, and Joe’s very sense of masculinity involves control. If he can’t control Alice, surely temptation, in the form of a long-legged lovely who laughs at his jokes and thinks he is wonderful, is lurking just around the corner....
“Aren’t you going to change?”
“No? Why?” Alice is dropping homemade lemon polenta cookies into a small gift bag to take to Sally and Chris’s barbecue.
“Well, for one thing you’ve got grass stains all over your knees.” He doesn’t say that she surely can’t be thinking of going to a social occasion in a gray sweatshirt and jeans.
“Oh God,” Alice groans. “Thanks. Won’t be a moment.” She runs upstairs and emerges a couple of minutes later in a clean pair of equally faded jeans, with the same sweatshirt and an old pair of loafers.
“Makeup?” Joe says hopefully, as Alice laughs and runs back upstairs. Five minutes later she comes down with her hair freshly brushed, her lips shining with a pink gloss, and the sweatshirt exchanged for a crisp white linen shirt.
“Better?” She laughs.
“Much,” Joe says gratefully, although he still would have liked to see her in her straight-legged wool crêpe Michael Kors trousers with her high-heeled Jimmy Choo boots.
“Whoa,” Alice laughs and steps nimbly out of the way to avoid a procession of screaming three- and four-year-olds heading toward her, while Joe groans.
“Oh God. Children.”
“Of course children. What do you expect of a barbecue at five o’clock on a Sunday afternoon?”
“Haven’t these people heard of nannies?”
Alice’s mouth drops open in amazement. “God, you’re so old-fashioned. Who do you think you are anyway, Little Lord Fauntleroy?”
“But why do these people take their children everywhere? What happened to grown-ups having a grown-up evening?”
“Keep your voice down,” Alice hisses just before they round the corner to the back of the house where the barbecue is—judging from the noise—in full throes. “First of all, it’s not evening, and second, it’s lovely to have your children with you. If we had children they’d come everywhere with me. I suppose you think children should be seen and not heard.”
“Actually I... ow!” Right on cue a nine-year-old bashes into Joe sharply as he runs past, chasing after the others.
“Ha!” Alice laughs. “Serves you right. Now put on your charming face and let’s go and meet some of the neighbors.”
“You must be Joe and Alice! Hi, I’m Tom O’Leary and this is my wife Mary Beth. We live right around the corner from you on Winding Lane.”
“Hi, I’m Chris, Sally’s husband, and I know you’ve met our daughter, Madison.”
“Alice! Joe! How lovely to see you again. Tim, this is Alice and Joe who bought the old Danbury house. Remember the sale I told you about?” Sandy beckons her husband over proudly. “So tell me all about the house. I hear you’ve done incredible things already.”
Before Alice has a chance to reply, yet another couple descends on them. “Joe and Alice, right? Welcome to Highfield, we’ve heard so much about you! I’m Kay and this is my husband, James. We’re at number seven. Those three are ours—Summer is five, Taylor is three, and whoops, where’s Skye? Oh, there she is crawling off again. Skye is eleven months.”
“Hello, gorgeous,” Gina swoops down on Alice and gives her a tight squeeze, releasing her to give Joe a kiss. “Isn’t this a lovely surprise?”
“I thought you weren’t down this weekend,” Alice says, knowing that Gina always pops in or phones to tell them they’re in the country.
“We weren’t. But I called to get my messages this morning, and Sally had left a message saying there’d be a barbecue, and it’s such a beautiful day we jumped in the car after lunch and drove down.”
“Oh, I’m glad you’re here.” Alice squeezes Gina’s hand, although the familiar tightening of her chest when she walks into a social situation where she knows barely anyone is missing today.
Of course it helps that everyone seems to be eager to meet them, and everyone is so friendly, which is something of a shock, although an enjoyable one. Alice is used to socializing in London, used to being terribly British and reserved, and standing around with a forced tight smile, never presuming to speak to anyone without an introduction, and never daring just to walk right on over and introduce herself. She is used to waiting for an introduction from the hostess and then waiting for the hostess to provide some grain of common ground that can, it is hoped, form the basis of small talk for a few minutes.
But here everyone just walks up with outstretched hands and welcoming smiles. Steaks and burgers are sizzling on the barbecue with Chris keeping watch, and the women are emerging from the kitchen with bowls of salads and baskets of bread to place on the table.
Beers and sodas are packed together on the table next to a huge bucket of ice, and everyone is cheerfully helping themselves while hordes of children run around on the lawn.
Alice walks into the kitchen. “Can I help?” she asks Sally, used to asking the question in London, and more used to hearing a “No, don’t worry,” even when the hostess is quite clearly harassed and not coping.
“That would be great,” Sally says. “You can chop the tomatoes.” And she slides the chopping board and knife over and turns to spoon some salsa into a bowl.
“So everyone here is a neighbor?” Alice asks, looking out through the window to see Joe presumably charming the pants off Kay and James. While friendly enough, if there was anyone here to set her antennae off, it would be Kay. Her figure completely belies the fact that she has had three children, an asset of which she is presumably well aware, dressed as she is in tight blue capri pants and a tiny T-shirt that more than shows off her suspiciously pert breasts. And unlike the other women here, all of whom are dressed much like Alice in jeans and loafers, or flat mules, Kay is standing tall in strappy high-heeled slingbacks.
And despite Joe talking to Kay and James together, Alice can see, even through the kitchen window, that Kay is dangerous. She feels that familiar fluttering, those danger signals that make her feel ever so slightly sick, but she tries to calm herself. Don’t be ridiculous, she tells herself. Not only is the woman married, she has three young children as well. Hardly a threat.
And Kay’s husband is handsome. Why on earth would she be flirting with Joe? Because Joe is English, and charming, and different? Don’t be ridiculous, she berates herself, chopping tomatoes fast and furiously. Joe and she have never been happier. The last thing she has to worry about now is Joe flirting with other women. He’s a changed man. And anyway, surely Kay isn’t his type?
“Kay and James seem nice. Do they live here all the time?”
“They do now,” Sally says. “They used to be weekenders, but after Skye was born they bought a bigger house down here and now they live here permanently.”
“Were they in Manhattan?”
“Weren’t we all?” Sally laughs. “Actually that’s not true. Chris never lived in Manhattan, but I did. Most of us have lived there before we got married and settled down.”
“They seem very friendly,” Alice lies, wanting to try to discover something about Kay, wanting to know whether she should be threatened, but not wanting to be obvious. She knows she should be asking Gina, but she doesn’t want Gina to suspect that Alice might be suspicious of Joe, and Gina knows her too well already.
“Oh, they are. And their children are just adorable. Kay actually runs the newcomers’ tennis team if you’re interested.”
“Tennis? Oh, no. Not our game.”
“Oh, really? So do you have a game?”
Alice laughs. “No. I suppose living in the center of London we never really had time for sports. Joe loves his gym though, and I’m completely obsessed with my garden.”
“We have a gardening club,” Sally says enthusiastically. “You should come. We have guests come in to talk to us, and every spring we hold a big plant sale. In fact, next week we have someone coming in to talk about autumn plantings for spring flowers. You should come.”
“Mmm,” Alice says noncommittally, thinking how horribly suburban it seems. “Sounds interesting.”
Sally starts laughing. “I remember saying exactly the same thing when we moved here. I know how awful it sounds, but if nothing else it’s a great way to meet people.”
Alice blushes. “I’m sorry. Was I being a horrible snob?”
“No more than any of us when we first got here. It just takes time to get into the small-town way of life. It’s very different, and we all think we’re better than that when we arrive fresh out of the Upper East Side or...?” She looks at Alice questioningly.
“Belgravia.”
“There you go. We’ll make a Highfield girl of you in no time.”
Alice carries the tomatoes outside and helps herself to a beer, trying to ignore her slight alarm at seeing Kay still talking animatedly to Joe, Kay’s husband having disappeared to help Chris with the barbecue.
“Darling,” Joe says, turning and pulling Alice to his side with a tender smile, causing all Alice’s fears to disappear in the wind. “Kay was just telling me about her tennis team. I’m going to join.”
Alice starts to laugh, able to relax as she basks in Joe’s public display of affection. “Tennis? Since when have you played tennis?”
“I played tennis for years,” Joe says defensively. “Although I have to admit my game is a bit rusty. But Kay says they’re looking for some more players, and it’s a great way to meet people.”
“Why don’t you come too?” Kay smiles at Alice, and Alice knows instantly that while she may be able to trust her husband, she must not trust this woman. Her mouth is smiling but her eyes are cool and appraising, and her body language—a subject in which Alice has had to become well versed—is directed straight at Joe, a sign of attraction if ever there was one.
“I don’t play tennis,” Alice explains, trying to keep the wariness out of her voice. “Although I could learn.”
“Darling, you’d be hopeless,” Joe laughs. “Your hand-eye coordination is dreadful.”
“Thanks,” Alice says, adding flirtatiously, and entirely uncharacteristically, “You weren’t complaining last night.”
Kay raises an eyebrow and smiles as she backs off. “I’m going to get some food. Nice to meet you.” Kay knows when she has met a fighter. At the end of the day she was only having a harmless flirt, and he is attractive, but clearly the wife doesn’t like him talking to attractive, no, make that beautiful, women.
With a toss of her hair, Kay walks up to the table to help herself to salad. She turns around and catches Joe studying her rear, and smiles to herself as she straightens and turns to display her gorgeous, well-toned body, pretending obliviousness at his continuing stare.
Good choice of clothes, she commends herself. She knew it was worth wearing those high heels.
Under normal circumstances Kay wouldn’t be his type. Rather too confident for his liking, and brunettes have never really been his style, although there is always the odd exception to the rule. But the longer he spends in Manhattan, the more accustomed he is growing to these strong women who know what they want and are frighteningly direct in getting it.
And quite frankly, she had what Joe has come to think of as “the look.” Yes, he knows she’s married, and the husband seems like a nice man if a little dull, and there are the three young children to consider, but she definitely looked like she was up for it. Something about a sparkle in her eye, a raised eyebrow, a hint of suggestiveness in what was otherwise a perfectly reasonable conversation about moving to America.
There was something that told him she was bored, and that her husband didn’t excite her anymore, and that should a tall dark handsome stranger come along, particularly one who had both charm and an English accent, she might just jump at the opportunity.
A flirtation is all he’s thinking about right now. Even though Alice is not the Alice he thought she was, he’s still trying to be the faithful husband, still doing his hardest to treat America as the fresh start it was always meant to be.
But God, it felt good to see that sparkle, to see the look again. Christ—he’d almost forgotten how to recognize it. And good to know that he has still got it after all, that he’s still as attractive as he was in London (for a while there he was beginning to doubt it). And what harm could it do to play tennis with her? Bet she looks fanfuckingtastic in a little tennis skirt, those long bronzed legs with little bobby socks on.
Joe starts to get excited as he surveys her rear, imagining her in her tennis whites, and he sees her glance at him then pretend not to have seen as she turns and stretches, her full breasts straining under her tight T-shirt.
Not usually his type, but she’s one hot little number. He likes the fact that she looks after herself. That she may have had three kids but her stomach looks as taut as a teenager’s, and that she’s well aware of how good she looks, how sexy she is.
He smiles to himself as he turns away and takes a long swig of cool beer. He’d better find a sports store in Manhattan this week. Buy a couple of rackets and a couple of pairs of tennis shorts. And tennis shoes. God. He hasn’t worn tennis shoes in about twenty years.
Hmmm. Looks like life in the country might not be so boring after all.
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